I will forever be your burden

To much has happened within the last few days.

1. I went to California. I got the worst sunburn of my life. I managed to have fun though. I kick ass at connect four, Sherry isn't as bad as she seemed, Nick thinks i'm a player. I learned that I really do love Kadie if i'm able to hang out with her for four days and not have a panic attack from being away from home. I miss the ocean...

2. I realized I really hate being away from home. It drives me insane. Then I have panic attacks and it's just weird. So now i'm concerned. I'm almost 18. And I want to move out. But can I?

3. Cherish and Casey finally talked while I was there. So I was drunk and I can barely remember any of the conversation but I do remember it happened.

4. I'm a genius. I knew Keith would get back together with Cat. But maybe this time he'll not be a douche. Wow. That was harsh. But really? I don't deserve to be ignored... most of the time. And it's started out good. He actually came to a party, despite the fact that he knew Cat would be upset. I think she'll get over it. Lucky bitch...

5. I convinced Kadie that zombies are real. It's fucking great.

6. I keep having panic attacks. Like right now. So I decided to blog because it reminds me of Cherish. And she makes me calm down. So instead of calling her and bothering her. I can sit here and type.

7. Ever bought a new book and it sits on your bed while your out doing other things and all you can think about is reading the book? That's been happening since I got back from borders. God, if I could live there I would. Books=<3.

8. People who are against pot piss me off. That's right, I mean you Freddy. It's sad that a forty something year old man has to threaten teenagers over a ciggarette wrapper in such a violent way. If I really wanted to make you mad I would have pulled out my pipe =). (Lol, like he's ever going to read this...)

9. I want to see funny people. But no one will take me. I should call Devin....

10. I'm pretty upset over stupid things right now. I should just focuse on important stuff, but then I get anxious. Gay. If I clean i'll feel better....

11. I decided to clean.